So my life has completely changed!! We found out on Mother's Day that we are pregnant for the second time!!! Another unplanned and unexpected pregnancy just like Nevaeh. Nevaeh hasn't even turned a year yet at that time! I knew I was feeling a little weird and I would joke with my yumkin that I thought I was pregnant. My boobs were killing me and I know it's gross but I could squirt milk out of 'em too. Not really the every day occurance for me. It was sunday and we got home from church. I asked my yumkin if I should take the test now or later. He replied ' Does it really matter?' Nope. So I took it and couldn't believe it. Pregnant. I yelled ' you're not going to believe this!!' Yup pregnant again. Another surprise. I couldn't help but smile. Nevaeh and this baby will only be 20 months apart. Talk about scary! She's a handful already what am I going to do with two!!
I immediately started to show, which was a bummer because I was just now starting to lose the baby weight and fit into some old clothes. I'm really worried about gaining the baby weight again. No matter how hard I try at eating healthy and working out and drinking a ton of water, I still pack on the pounds. It's really depressing. I don't want to be 200 lbs at the end of this pregnancy! But my body somehow keeps gaining the weight. I don't know where it's coming from!!!! So with that worry out in the open, I have another. What am I going to do with two kids. I'm so warn out and tired all the time with Nevaeh. How will I even survive another baby? Nevaeh is finally starting to sleep through the night and take naps regularly. She's fifteen months now. Do I have to wait that long for baby number two to get the whole sleeping thing figured out? I sure hope not. I was a zombie for the first five months of Nevaeh's life. I don't jump back from labor and delivery very well. Am I really ready to go through this again? I didn't even have a choice! I'm so done with surprises!
So I'm half way through this pregnancy. 20 weeks. I've seriously blown up like a balloon. I asked my hunny if my butt was getting bigger and he said yes. So sad. My butt is already huge. We find out on tuesday if it is a boy or girl. I'm really thinking it is a boy. Everytime we go in to the doctor's, they have a hard time finding the heart beat because he/she is moving around so much. The baby is nick named Ninja baby for now. Always on the move. So fingers crossed we are having a boy!
And it is so true that every pregnancy is different. I had morning sickness, acne, gross hair and horrible mood swings with this baby. With Nevaeh I was the happiest pregnant woman alive.
